More Southern Hemisphere Ramblimgs

Hey Blogger brothers,

Thank you for your faithfullness. I am not deserving but I love you guys. Your love and support on my last post means the world to me.

A Boyfriend?

To expand on my last post. Yes, I do have a boyfriend.

A charming gentle soul. A real teddy bear of a man. Like so many relationships these days it started on the net. I found a small and heartfelt piece of writing I could identify with on the net. I wrote to the corresponding email address. We only exchanged words, never so much as a picture. I was well smitten by his writing and we kept the email correspodence for a while. When we met in person, the man turned out to be just as attractive to me in persone as he writing was. A smile that reached his eyes and somehow weakened my knees. The rug peering out from his shirt also had a big appeal ;). Not to mention a great sense of humour. He really is a caring soul.

I seriously did not contemplate that I am any kind of emotional state to deal with a relationship. But there it is. We have been seeing each other a little over four months now. I wont make predictions on the future. I don't think either of us was in any position to start the relationship. (Truth be told it lacks the smarts completely). I will keep living as long as I can in the moment though. I really do believe it is better to have loved and lost than never to love at all.

Gay Socialising.

My therapist (Glad I opted to see one. Thanks for the encouragement Troll.), suggested as a newly coming out man I spend time socialising with gay men. He feels I still need time to gain acceptance of myself as a gay man and this would help. I think I am okay on the acceptance of self part. On the social front I dont think I have ever felt more comfortable in my skin. I have met an amazing group of people, whom I thoroughly enjoy spending time with. Thankfully I have not found it difficult to make new friends.

I was invited to attend a drag show . My first time ever attending such an event. I laughed until my sides hurt. I also have a new found respect for drag queens as a whole

After the show we hit the club scene. My ego took a slight knock when I realised that most ( read all) of the clubs patrons where somewhat younger than I was. I was pleasantly surprised though by the attention I got though. Very flattering.

The Spectre of HIV

It is with some sorrow I have lost one of those new found friends this last weekend due to late stage HIV complications. It makes a strong case for frequent testing and the merits of early detection. He did not know his HIV status until mere weeks before he died. It was also sobering and brought home why one cannot be careless even once.

Of Importance

Spider, Bigg , gents are never far from my mind.

I love you guys now.
I always will
Anthony